Radiation

It snowed today! I'm very excited. :)

Ok, so I met with my radiation oncologist this morning and he went over various things regarding radiation treatment: why it's important, why I need it, how it will be done, for how long and the side effects.

I've been away from treatment for about 3 months now and I forgot how scary it is for me being in the hospital for treatment. :( When he briefly talked about statistics and reccurence I felt myself being consumed in fear, yet again. I've been so busy with everything going on in my life that, even though I think about breast cancer every single day, I don't really carry that deep fear that I get when the doctors talk to me about what I may or may not be faced with down the road. Being reminded of the reality of my situation is always difficult.

But then again, I never know what tomorrow holds. None of us do. That's why living one day at a time is so important and valuable.

So here's the game plan:
Friday at 3:00 p.m. I will go to Huntsman Cancer Institute to get tattoos (they are permanent little dots that allow for alignment in the machine, as well as noting where I've been radiated because you can never radiate the same area twice). They are also going to capture a 'mould' or image of me that they will use to help guide them.

And I should actually start radiation next week. I'm ready.

I was also given a prescription to get a prosthetic to put in my bra so that I can finally feel and look like a woman again. It's been a little discouraging wearing any fitted shirt because of the obvious lack of a right breast. So, this is good news. :)